There has been a song that has been replaying in my head for the past few weeks. Truthfully, I don’t even know the song very well or even particularly like it! It’s a song I’ve only heard a handful of times in my entire life. But for some strange reason, it’s been on a continuous loop in my head for weeks and even had me laid out on my floor in tears one Sunday evening just crying out to God.
What really gets me about this whole situation are the lyrics of the song. The lyrics are as follows:
I don’t mind waiting
I don’t mind waiting
I don’t mind waiting on the Lord…..
Now, let me tell you something people… In regards to myself, this is a bold face LIE! I absolutely, 100 percent DO MIND waiting! Waiting for anything is just not my style; my food, a ride, people….. God. Like an impatient toddler, I want what I want RIGHT NOW; and like a petulant teenager, I sulk and pout when things don’t happen they way I want them to when I expect them to.
Well, the past few months especially, God has had to humble me. He’s confirmed some things to me about my life from various people. People who all know me on different levels. Some on a closer more intimate level of friendship to two older ladies who really only know me in passing. They’ve confirmed things that God spoke into my spirit, that I had shared with not one soul. Yet here I am, still not seeing how this situation is going to work out, and growing increasingly frustrated when so many roadblocks keep deterring me from trusting God’s timing.
Do you know I even “got mad” at God and stopped speaking to Him for about a week? In this “quiet” time ( God wasn’t quiet at all; in fact He probably spoke more clearly) God spoke so clearly and said, “Who are you not to trust me?”…….. Ummm….
Whoa…. Really who am I to not trust the one who wrote the map of life? The one who saw all the detours I would take, all the roadblocks I would hit, all the recalculating I would have to do to get me to my final destination. Who am I not to trust the one who promised that the plans He has for me are ones to prosper me and not harm me (Jeremiah 29:11)
The last little while, God has brought me back to revisit and study the Fruit of the Spirit.( Galatians 5:22-23) One of course being patience. This season I’m in, is just a reminder that this is one fruit in particular I need to work on. God sometimes has to bring you through situations to prepare you for what He has in store for you.
Tough to swallow and handle at times. However, anything that God has ever had me wait for, has been for my benefit and not my detriment. I stop and think sometimes about the things I have waited on God for before. If they had come at any other season of my life, I wouldn’t be prepared for it. Such as with this season… God is preparing me for what comes next!
And so I’ll wait. Trusting that what’s for me will always be for me… no matter how long I have to wait for it ..
I guess the lyrics ring true after all…. I don’t mind waiting on God.
Have a blessed Monday!
Sorry for the lack of regularly scheduled posts as of late… it has been a rough few months! But I’m back and ready to create some new content! Thanks for sticking through it with me!