So.. It’s finally here. I’ve officially left my 20’s and have entered into my 30’s…. Had you asked me a year ago If I was worried about turning 30 I would have told you no way! But then… July of this year rolled around and all of a sudden it hit me ; I’m about to be 30! ( insert straight face emoticon here) I began to really get down on myself. There’s so much I had wanted to accomplish in my 20’s that I havent done yet. Not that I havent accomplished a lot ( because I have) but still I had a plan! People around me were telling me that it’s really not a “big deal” and that frustrated me to no end! Yes, I know it may not be a big deal to you but hey I’m entitled to my opinions and feelings. Plus I think it’s really hard especially on us females. Am I wrong? So that just brought me down even more. I honestly think I was having a “midlife” crisis the past few weeks. 😦
I however had to take a step back and after a particularly rough day dwelling on the fact that my youth was rapidly evading me.( and people telling me it’s not a big deal) I had to chastise myself and really stop and think about what I was doing. I was literally giving God a big old slap in His face by mourning the fact that I was granted another year of life! How ungrateful of me!
Yes I’ve had some really rough times during these past few decades. But one thing remains, God was right there beside me leading me. Even when I chose not to follow Him, He still stayed beside me. How can I not be grateful?
This year, I place all my plans in His hands. Jeremiah 29:11-13 says:
11For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
I pray as I step into the 30’s I will remember my plans do not reign sovereign! God knows what He’s doing and He doesn’t need my help! Everything will work out in time. So, i’m kick up my heels and dance like its 1999, love on people, honor God and wait on my blessings!
I always like to choose a song to carry with me in heart for my birthday year. This year I chose “All of my Help” by Geoffrey Golden ( listen down below)
Age really aint nuthin but a number! Youre only as old as you feel! ( I wish someone gave me knees the memo that I’m not that old lol ) Plus, I still get carded everywhere I go so that means I don’t look a day over 17! ( I’ll take it) 30 years young and looking forward to what this next decade has in store! Pray for me y’all! All of my help comes from you God!!
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Happy birthday Soph! Enjoy your day beautiful
I felt the exact same way when I was turning 30….very hard on myself because I felt like I didn’t accomplish all of my goals by my birthday.
Let me tell you, my 30’s have been sooo much better than my 20’s! I’m glad that I’ve left some things to accomplish in my 30’s that was on my ’20’s’ list lol.
Enjoy your birthday!