Monday Motivation: Till We Meet Again…

Monday Motivation: Till We Meet Again…

No sickness  Is stronger than you
No power Is greater than you
No wisdom Is wiser than you
You’re greater You’re greater…

Those are some of the lyrics to Todd Dulaney’s song “Greater” and ever since last Thursday those lyrics have been in my head.

I have been missing in action for a little bit, but with good reason. A few weeks back a wrote a post called Monday Motivation: Put a Praise On It… where I spoke about two friends who were battling the dreadful disease called cancer. I praised them for handling their circumstances with grace, and trusting God to see them through this dark time…

Sadly on Thursday September 22, my friend Shannon lost her battle. She took her final breath here on earth surrounded by her loved ones and is now resting in sweet peace in the arms of her saviour.

What really hit me to my core about this was the fact that she lived 5 hours away from where I lived ( a place where all of my mothers family that reside in Canada live, did all of my post secondary education , a city where I spent an abundance of my life!) so I didn’t get the opportunity to get up and physically see her during her latest battle with Cancer. I had two weddings to attend these past two weekends up in Ottawa, and I had set in my mind that on the 23rd as soon as I got to the city I was going to go see her…. she passed the day before I got there…. heartbreaking….

She was laid to rest on the same day I was preparing to witness my godbrother marry his queen ( ma cherie Evelyne ❤ ) so I literally attended a funeral and a wedding on the same day…

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I’ll miss her dearly but I’m not sad. I’m  at peace because she’s no longer in pain. She’s free. She’s somewhere around the throne of God! Although she wasn’t there with us physically on Saturday, she was able to get us all together to sing and praise together which is something she absolutely loved to do and boy did we send her off in style!

Her spirit will live on in us forever. Her faith and grace has impacted us all. Her perseverance  was admirable. Her strength…. wow….

The book of 2 Corinthians chapter 5 talks about new bodies. Detailing how the bodies we have now are temporary and that our job while we are in these earthly bodies is to serve him, our goal is to please him..  Read the passage down below:

For we know that when this earthly tent we live in is taken down (that is, when we die and leave this earthly body), we will have a house in heaven, an eternal body made for us by God himself and not by human hands. We grow weary in our present bodies, and we long to put on our heavenly bodies like new clothing. For we will put on heavenly bodies; we will not be spirits without bodies.[a] While we live in these earthly bodies, we groan and sigh, but it’s not that we want to die and get rid of these bodies that clothe us. Rather, we want to put on our new bodies so that these dying bodies will be swallowed up by life. God himself has prepared us for this, and as a guarantee he has given us his Holy Spirit.

So we are always confident, even though we know that as long as we live in these bodies we are not at home with the Lord. For we live by believing and not by seeing. Yes, we are fully confident, and we would rather be away from these earthly bodies, for then we will be at home with the Lord. So whether we are here in this body or away from this body, our goal is to please him. 10 For we must all stand before Christ to be judged. We will each receive whatever we deserve for the good or evil we have done in this earthly body.

Shannon girl you have put on your new body, and when you stand before the saviour He will be pleased. So till we meet again….

May His peace be with you till we meet again
May His peace be with you till we meet again
Till we reach that distant shore
And we’ll shed a tear no more
May He give you strength to endure
Till we meet again

May His love be with you till we meet again
May His love be with you till we meet again
Till we reach that promised land
And we’ll walk hand in hand
May He give you strength to stand
Till we meet again

xoxo

 

 

Monday Motivation: He’ll Take The Pain Away…

Monday Motivation: He’ll Take The Pain Away…

Hi guys!

I must apologize for being so missing in action this past week. I have had some health issues that have kept me away from this blogging journey but I am on the mend and ready to share some awesome content with you! 🙂

The month of February is a month usually associated with love. However, the month of February is often a tough one for me.  Ten years ago, a dear friend of mine became a victim of a senseless crime. A beautiful girl who had her life cut short in a hail of bullets that weren’t intended for her…. . Rarely a day goes by that I don’t think of her and what she could’ve ( and would’ve) become. Her name was Chantel Dunn, and I miss her.

So while I was thinking about her a song dropped into my spirit. It’s a song that spoke to my spirit long before I knew what It would mean to me.

Let me set the stage: Sir Allan MacNab High school: 2001: Basketball Game.  Game was super boring so I whipped out my good old trusty Walkman! (For all you millennials out there a “Walkman” is the late 90’s to mid 2000’s version of a mp3 player! ) I popped in my good old Kirk Franklin cassette tape and the song that I fast forwarded it to was “He’ll Take The Pain Away”. I really loved the simple arrangement of this song and so I passed one part of my headphones to my bestie Slim and we began to sing! Now, we grew up singing together as children in church, but I actually think that was the first time we actually sang in harmony together.

It was a beautiful moment… one I hadn’t thought about in over a decade… until this February as the anniversary of Chan’s passing approached. I really began to take in the lyrics of the song. Read the lyrics down below:

He’ll take the pain away, I know
He’ll take the pain away
He’ll take the pain away, I know
He’ll take the pain away

Though you’ve been searchin’ for such a long time
Searchin’ for hope and some peace of mind
There’s a friend who would step in on time
He’ll take the pain away, He’ll take the pain away

He’ll take the pain away, I know
He’ll take the pain away
He’ll take the pain away, I know
He’ll take the pain away

You’ve been searching all of here and all of there
And all God can take the pain away
And I tried him for my self and
Oh, I’m a living witness that God will take the pain away

Though you’ve been searchin’ for such a long time
Searchin’ for hope and some peace of mind
There’s a friend who would step in on time
He’ll take the pain away, He’ll take the pain away

He’ll take the pain away, I know
He’ll take the pain away
He’ll take the pain away, I know
He’ll take the pain away

Hold on, don’t give up

If any man be in Jesus
He’ll take the pain away
If any man be in Jesus brand new
He’ll take the pain away

Years ago, when this tragedy occurred,  I would have said that It would be impossible for these wounds to heal. I found this quote that really resonated with me. It reads:

“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”

Although my heart has never really recovered from this loss ( along with loss of many others) , I am so blessed to serve a God who steps in as a comforter!  One line of the song reads: “There’s a friend who would step in on time He’ll take the pain away” .

What an awesome God I serve! One that can take what looks like the bleakest of situations and bring some sunshine to the grayest of days! If you are hurting put your trust in Jesus Christ. He died on the cross for us, and along with Him comes the Holy Spirit the comforter. He can take the broken pieces of your heart and mend them, just like He has done with mine! It’s not easy getting over a loss, but with Jesus it is easier

Psalm 55:22 (NLT) reads

22 Give your burdens to the Lord,
    and he will take care of you.
    He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.

“I’m a living witness that God can take the pain away!”

Have a blessed Monday folks!!

xoxo

Grieving yet still Grateful….

Grieving yet still Grateful….

“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.”
Anne Lamott ( Goodreads.com) ( i love this quote, It puts into words exactly how I feel right now)

 I  know this blog is kind of repetitive as I did a similar blog topic last week, but its been on my heart again 😦

It’s been a crazy two weeks y’all. Losing two family members within ONE DAY of each other has probably been one of the hardest situations I have ever been through in life. But what made this situation even harder to deal with, was with the fact that I had to step into the role of “the strong one”. Each one of my parents lost a sibling, and not only a sibling, they lost their closest sibling. So naturally they are hurting. Also what makes this situation so hard, is that they don’t even really have each other to lean on right because each one is grieving the loss of their own.

So that leaves me. The most accessible child caught in the middle of two grieving parents. It’s been hard guys. I’ve been doing my best to be supportive to both parents, but it can really take a toll on you especially as you yourself are grieving. I think this past Sunday as we laid my Aunt to rest, It really hit me that she’s really gone 😦  She is the aunt that I take after the most. I get my attitude from her, my temper from her and my awesome skin from her ( thanks to all the nights of her coating me in baby lotion and Vaseline 😛 ) and to even imagine that I can’t pick up the phone and hear her cuss me again is so hard. The way that she took care of my father as a young boy( and even as an adult) always resonated with me. As a self-proclaimed “daddy’s girl” ( lol) It always warmed my heart to see their relationship, and because she loved my dad so much, that automatically made me her favorite 😛 ( sorry guys they said it at the funeral: it’s confirmed lol 🙂 ) Then there’s my uncle.. such a kind-hearted man. My mom’s number one fan and her fiercest protector growing up. My mom is shattered and that just breaks me  😦

But I am so glad that I have had an amazing support system. I can’t even stress the amount of love I have for my friends. They have truly rallied around my family and I during this time. The calls the texts,the social media check ins, the visits, the food,the laughs and cheering up has been absolutely my rock during this time. My amazing co- workers ( who are friends like family) have made it possible for me to be accessible for my family, picking up my slack at work, literally feeding me ( thanks Mina 🙂 ) and just being as supportive as can be…. words can’t even express my gratitude. My church family… man… words can’t even express how supportive they have been. Right from day one they stood by our side and filled our home with prayers, company and  groceries. No church is perfect but my church has certainly set the bar high when it comes to genuine compassion and love.Hamilton Church of God of Prophecy, you are loved.I’m forever grateful.

Now I’m not the type of person who grieves openly. I’m more of the “keep it bottled in”  kind of girl . It’s actually really hard for me to express my emotion. I guess it’s because I’m pretty tough and resilient I sometimes forget that “tough girls” need to cry sometimes too. While it’s hard for me to express my emotion, I know that it’s not healthy to keep everything bottled up. I have my “true few” who have seen me break down and have been a great support but I am so glad that I serve a God that I can come to with my grief and lay it right at His feet. If there is anyone I can be completely transparent with its God. He has been there through the darkest of times and I know He will continue to see me through.

Matthew 5:4  “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.”

All I can say is that if you are grieving please reach out to someone. I understand not everyone shares the type of relationship with God that I do ( although you should try it, its honestly amazing! 🙂 ❤ )  But please talk to someone. A friend,a coach, a parent, a teacher… anyone. It’s much harder to “recover” from grief by yourself. Put your trust in someone.

Keep me in your thoughts y’all! Now that things have calmed down a tad, I’ll be right back on to my regularly scheduled blogging!!!

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xoxo

Monday Motivation: It Is Well With My Soul…

Monday Motivation: It Is Well With My Soul…

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say,It is well, it is well with my soul…..

Psalms 34:18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Matthew 5:4 Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

Yes. Yes I know its Tuesday. Forgive me please 😦  It has been probably one of the toughest weeks of my life this  past week. On Wednesday of last week my aunt on my dads side passed away and on Thursday of the very same week  my uncle on my moms side passed away…. Yes you read this right. Last week I lost and aunt and an uncle less than 36 hours apart… Its been a rough week. Needless to say I experienced the emotion of grief this week. Not only grieving for myself but for my parents as well.

What is grief? According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary,grief is described as deep and poignant distress caused by or as if by bereavement;  a cause of such suffering.

However, even in the midst of my grief, I never experienced the despair and depression that comes along with it. I have been blessed with an amazing group of friends and church family that have truly outdone themselves when it comes to the gift of compassion. From my friends who came to see my parents and brought them dinner, the text messages and endless phone calls and social media words of encouragement; to those wonderful co-worker friends sending a care package to my house and physically kept me going ( literally fed me and took over my role at work without me even asking) and most importantly the prayers of those who know and serve the God I serve, conveyed a source of comfort.

I don’t know how people deal with such hard circumstances without a strong support system.Please, whatever you are going through , talk to somebody! I’m not one to really show my emotions not even to my family. I don’t like to have people fuss over me. I always have to be the one who is the comforter. But a person can only take so much and there is a small handful of people who have seen me get there. But this time, even though my heart was breaking for myself and was absolutely shattered for my parents, I was overcome with such peace. A peace that could only come from my God.  A ” peace that transcends all understanding”, ( Philippians 4:7)

The song, It is well with my soul just kept me repeating over and over in my head. Especially the part of the song that says, “whatever my lot thou hast taught me to say, It is well with my soul.”

I know that no matter the circumstances, how grim the situation may look, that I have a heavenly father right beside me mending the pieces of my grieving heart. I know that He has put people in place to stand in the midst and lift me up and that he has enabled me with strength I didn’t even know I could possess. I stand in awe of a God who loves me that much to ensure that even when life looks bleak I am able to see light at the end of a dark tunnel. I don’t ( and never will) understand Gods plan, but I do understand that God has A PLAN.

So rest on in paradise Aunt Lynn and Uncle Ken. Your service here on earth is complete. Rest on in the arms of our savior and I will work hard to see you again….. Sleep well

xoxo