Monday Motivation: Reckless Love…

Monday Motivation: Reckless Love…

adjective

Reckless:

to be reckless of danger.

characterized by or proceeding from such carelessness: reckless extravagance.

Hey guys,

So I was reminiscing with a friend the other day and they asked me, ” What was the most reckless thing you did as a child?” Automatically, my mind took me back to a crisp fall day in 1997 ( dang I’m aging myself here LOL)

I love to rollerblade, even to this day. But when I was in middle school and had to walk to a school that was a considerable distance away from my home, my mother absolutely forbade me from rollerblading to school. Being an adult now, I can understand why she encouraged me not to do it. However, being the stubborn child that I was, I went ahead and did it anyway.  The route that I chose to take to school on this particular day was out of the ordinary for me. It took me longer to get to school this way but the only friend crazy enough to join me on this great expedition, lived closer to this direction. So naturally, we met in the middle and off we went…. rollerblading down an extremely steep hill…. with oncoming traffic all around us. Not a care in the world.

Now I’m not sure  if you truly understand how steep this hill was. It was so steep that in order to stop myself from blading directly into oncoming traffic, I had to reach out and grab the stop sign pole that was to the right of me  to slow me down ( I am actually shuddering at the thought of this) After I successfully finished my ride, I looked to the left of me and BAM! My mothers good friend was stopped at the bottom of the hill I had just descended. It appeared at the time that she didn’t see me and so I thought I was in the clear!  I later learned upon getting home from school, that she did see me and had promptly called my mother at work. I was properly disciplined Jamaican style ( I’ll leave you to use your imagination lol) This experience was one of the most reckless things I did in my childhood.

Reminiscing about this experience, had me think about that word “RECKLESS”. Let’s look into it for a moment.

The word reckless as defined above means “utterly unconcerned about the consequences  of some action.

I began to look at the word reckless in correlation to our relationship with God. The song “Reckless Love” by Cory Ashbury really helped me put my thoughts together. Mind you, I absolutely HATED this song the first few times I heard it years ago because I didn’t take the time to decipher the message in the lyrics.

Here are the lyrics in particular that I want to take a look at today:

Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn’t earn it, and I don’t deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah

I was speaking with another friend about how love by today’s standards are truly a gamble. You win some and you may lose some too.  But in order to really experience it you have to be willing to take that risk.

God truly took a risk on us and chose to love us recklessly, without another thought. Even  with Him being the creator and having the ability to see that we were going to hurt Him time and time again , He still CHOSE to love us recklessly! He loves us through our mess. He loves us even when we choose to walk away from Him over and over again.

There is nothing we can do to “earn” the love of God. God’s love is open and available to anyone who sets themselves in a place to receive it.

The part of the chorus that says “leaves the ninety nine,” brings me back to the Parable of the Lost Sheep, specifically the depiction detailed in Luke 15: 1-7 :

The Parable of the Lost Sheep

15 Now the tax collectors and sinners were all gathering around to hear Jesus.But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, “This man welcomes sinners and eats with them.” Then Jesus told them this parable: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

This parable brings to life an analogy of how God views us. We at some point have been that one sheep that has wandered astray, and God has dropped everything to go out and call out us and beckon to us. He rejoices when we are found and boasts about it!  Now common sense would say “Its just one! Leave it and cut your losses”.  But no, this is another example of How God’s reckless love abounds.  He honestly could have said oh well another one bites the dust, but he didn’t. He is openly distraught when one sheep (us) is missing from the flock. It feels unnatural, incomplete until the lost one is returned to the flock.

The bridge of this song has lyrics as follows:
There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me

To continue to love someone who continuously  walks away from you, turns their back on you, treats you with disregard is truly a reckless and careless move.  But as the aforementioned bridge says, there is absolutely NOTHING that can keep our God from loving us without limits!  Now this doesn’t mean that God is reckless. It simply means that the depth of His love is.. without thought or caution or rhyme and reason!

God’s love to the carnal eye of man is foolish. It makes no sense. In many ways His love is as pure and innocent as the love of a child. His love loves without barriers. His love is the type of love that never gives up. His love tears down walls. His love heals trauma! His love allows you to see the bright patch in a season of dark places…  His love in a nutshell is RECKLESS and I for one am eternally grateful for God’s Reckless Love! Oh to love and BE LOVED by God. Its truly a remarkable phenomenon.

 

Be blessed today and always!
Til Next Time,
xoxo

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May Your Bad Days Prove That God is Good…

May Your Bad Days Prove That God is Good…

Hey loves!

As 2018 is drawing to a close, I have been doing some reflecting ( as most of us do). I began to think about my year.. and honestly how “bad” it’s been. At the beginning of the year I had multiple people from different areas of my life tell me that “2018 is my year” and let me tell you after the past few years I have experienced,  I was in need of “something good”. But in no uncertain terms was 2018 my year. While it wasn’t my worst year, it wasn’t what I would   refer to as “my year”.  I was still met with exceeding disappointment, overwhelming anxiety and “unanswered prayers.”

It was in talking with a friend, that caused me to really take a step back and reevaluate what “my year” really meant. I was looking for the physical manifestation of my prayers while not really taking into consideration the work that God was doing on the inside of me.  I spent too much of 2018 in anticipation of the “what’s coming for me” and not enough time in the awe of “what God is doing for me right now”.

I look at 2018 as my year of refinement. What does it mean to be refined?  According to google dictionary ,  to be refined is defined as

” with impurities or unwanted elements having been removed by processing.”
“elegant and cultured in appearance, manner, or taste.”
“developed or improved so as to be precise or subtle.”

This year forced me to take stock of all the parts of myself that needed refining. There were several areas of my life that God really needed to refine within me this year and while it may have seemed long and tedious, or that God wasn’t hearing me this year, He had to take me through the process.  The refining process is not a simple or quick task. It takes time! We live in this microwave generation where we want everything in 2 minutes or less. But God doesn’t work on our time schedule. He takes His time refining His people because He wants us to be the best version of ourselves, which in turn is the best representation of Him.

So yes, while 2018 was filled with “bad days” it has taught me so much about myself. It has always caused me to reflect that my bad day is a walk in the park for somebody else. Yes, I know that’s cliche to say but it’s really true. I have a friend ( I won’t name him because I didn’t ask permission to share his story… hopefully in the future I can interview him) who has battled more in 2018 than I probably have in my whole life and He still manages to lift his hands in worship to the almighty God. That has inspired me and blessed me in more ways than you could ever imagine. As I look at him, the song “God is Good” by Jonathan McReynolds  comes to mind.  The song is simple prayer:

May your struggles keep you near the cross
And may your troubles show that you need God
And may your battles end the way they should
And may your bad days prove that God is good
And may your whole life prove that God is good

May your bad days prove that God is GOOD! Even in the “bad days” God is still God. I’ve learned to stop asking God why and when things will happen for me and learned to trust His timing. Also, to take stock of what He is refining in the process!

Trouble with your health? (yup have that) GOD IS GOOD
Sick loved ones? ( yup have that ) God IS GOOD
Relationship disappointments? ( going through that) but GOD IS STILL GOOD)
Anxiety? ( yessssssssssssss) GOD IS STILL GOOD
“Unanswered prayers” ?( yessssss lord lol) HE’S STILL GOOD

End of the story is no matter what you’re going through,  GOD IS STILL GOOD! Refining hurts sometimes but it is for your betterment in the long run!

I encourage anyone out here reading this to not lose hope during the refining process! Trust that you will come out of refinement better than you were before. New, refreshed and ready to tackle anything that comes your way! I pray that your 2019 is a year of blessings in abundance and overflow for you!

2018 was the year of refinement for me. 2019 is the time to shine! May my whole life prove that God is GOOD!

A huge shoutout to everyone who played a part in my “refining year”. I couldn’t have survived this year without your help. prayers and sometimes strong reprimands that knocked some much needed sense into me!

Onward and upward from here on out! 2019 lets get it!!

Take a listen to this song by Jonathan McReynolds. I hope its simple yet powerful message speaks to you as it has spoken to me ❤

Blessings!
Til next time,
xoxo
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Make Room

Make Room

Jonathan McReynolds has a beautiful song called “Make Room” that really speaks about making room for God in your life. About preparing your heart for God to dwell there. This is the song that really inspired this post. During my summer travels, as my friend and I drove through the lush greenery that is the state of Tennessee, God dropped this song right into our laps and for 3+ hours from Chattanooga to Memphis this song was on repeat. We worshipped, we meditated on the goodness of God and for me… I felt convicted…  I need to make even more room for God.

I am a LOVER of schedules. I have a planner that each week is updated with my plans and commitments for the week. Colour coded so its easy to see what things are a priority and what things can be shuffled around and done on another day.

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It seems that time is something that we never have enough of. Somebody will mention that they need help with something at the church, or your neighbour may need a hand moving and out comes the classic line, “Oh I don’t have any time to do that.”  Yet oddly enough if its something that we feel like doing or are super intrigued by, magically the hours for productivity suddenly appear? Funny how that happens!

Recently, an acquaintance of mine and I were making plans to hit up the gym together, I suggested we meet up in the evening after work and she wanted to meet up in the early morning . While I’m not particularly fond of getting up early, my body wakes me up at 6 am rain or shine, sleet or snow, vacation or work day. So naturally, knowing this , she thought that  going to the gym in the early morning would seem to be of no problem to me right? Wrong. It’s in that early part of the morning that I like to spend my quiet time with God in prayer and bible study as it’s the time of day that I feel that I can give God my  undivided attention and frankly I’m the most alert. When I explained this her she responded,  “Well can’t you just do that later?” Ok I thought, just this once I’ll move things around  and spend time with God later. And you know what happened, Later on came… and so did the sleep….  a day of sweet commune with God missed, never to be regained.

In that moment it dawned me; it shouldn’t be so easy for me to rearrange my schedule when it means bumping God out of the priority spot.  We often rearrange our time with God for something as trivial as a television program.  I can vividly remember in junior high and high school being so mad at my parents for making me go back to church on a Sunday evening when all I wanted to do was stay home and watch the Grammy’s or the BET awards ( remember this was in a time where live streaming and PVR weren’t an option, so if you missed it you missed it!) where as now I could care less!

What if God rearranged His schedule to only be available for us when He felt like it? This society would be even more in shambles than it already is ( hard to imagine!)  We oftentimes take for granted the gift that is Jesus. Someone who is always available morning, noon or night to hear our EVERY need. All He wants from us is for us to make room for Him in our heart and in our lives.

How many times have we prayed this prayer: ” God if you just give me one more day, I promise to  be better to You than  I was today. To give you all of me not just the leftovers?” Then tomorrow comes and again out of mouth comes the exact same words? I don’t know about you, but there are only so many times I can eat leftovers before getting sick of them and before they get stale. In the same way we don’t want to eat leftovers everyday, we need to stop giving God our leftover worship and our reheated praise! Come guys we have to give Him something new to eat once in awhile! There is nothing better than fresh food!

How do you make room for God in your life? Here are 4 ways to make room for God in your everyday life :

Make time for Him:
Make God a priority. The new Netflix series will wait. The phone call will go to voicemail. Give God your undivided attention.

Get rid of and negativity:
Make your heart comfortable for God to enter in. It will be hard for Him to navigate through negative space.  Release and let go of anything that is holding your heart and a prisoner to anger or resentment.

Physically create space for Him:
Find a room or a closet; perhaps your bathroom. Create a space where you will not be surrounded by any distractions, where you can have some personal alone time with God.

Meditate on His word:
Seeking out and studying the word of God is a good way to get to know Him, to learn from Him and to hear from Him.

Where I live, the children are heading back to school today. I am an Educator so this means back to work as regularly scheduled for me as well. ( farewell leisurely summer days 😦 lol )  This is a challenge and reminder to me ( and you) that no matter how hectic life gets, how busy our schedules may seem, make room for God FIRST!

 

 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. ( Matthew 6:33)

Have a blessed day!
Til next time…
xoxo

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Monday Motivation: I Will Search For You…

Hey y’all!

Today  was cold guys… like its May and I almost reached for my winter jacket today! However, on the bright side it wasn’t raining where I live; the sky was bright blue and the sun was shining brightly ( just not warmly lol )

I work in early childhood education and outside on the playground today,  the kids and I were looking at a birds nest we had been watching evolve for the past few weeks. Last week we watched the baby birds hatch and were even able to see the mother bird in her protective and nurturing element. Today we were able to see the mother bird leave the nest and go out into the grass and search for what we assumed were worms to feed her babies. It was really interesting to watch the mother bird as she searched diligently. She had a task and she was determined not to return to the nest without what she had set out for.

As I watched the mother bird seek and search with all her heart  for something to bring back to her babies, I was reminded of how much God does for us. He is always providing for us with the utmost intensity. He is always wanting to give us the best.  He sees our needs and will stop at nothing  to give us what we need

But at the same time, I saw the mother bird as a reflection of people. The same way the mother bird was seeking vigorously for something to feed her babies , is the same way we should be seeking and longing after  a relationship with God. With the same urgency and desire bring something to Him. When seek God in all aspects of our lives earnestly, God in turn will search to fulfill our needs and desires according to His will.

What do I mean by “seek” God? Well, to seek means to :
attempt to find (something).
attempt or desire to obtain or achieve (something).
ask for (something) from someone.

To find or obtain something, you first have to look for it. You can’t have a relationship with God without looking for Him! How can you look for Him? Learn all you can about God through his word ( the bible ) and talk to Him through prayer . Spend time with Him. Once you know God, you then can begin to ask Him things and really hear from Him.  Seek and ye shall find!

I was reminded of two scriptures today . The first being Jeremiah 29:13 which reads, ”  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” and Matthew 6:33 which reads ” Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

This moment also brought a song to mind today which I think sums up how I’m feeling today. The song is  called , “I Will Search”  by Israel Houghton .  Take a listen down below: 

How precious how lovely
Are your thoughts oh Lord toward me
How truly amazing
Is the grace that you have shown
Oh majesty I live to see your face

I will search for you
And I will find you
I will find you with all my heart
I will lift my hands to you in worship
And I will worship with all my heart

How gracious relentless
Is the Father’s love toward us
Breathtaking the beauty
And the radiance of you
Oh majesty I live to see your face
And be transformed
Into your image

I will search for you
And I will find you
I will find you with all my heart
I will lift my hands to you in worship
And I will worship with all my heart (x 2)

Oh Oh I will worship you with all my heart
Oh Oh I will worship you with all my heart

That’s it for today folks! May you have the diligence of a mother bird as you seek God today and always!

Blessings
Xoxo

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Monday Motivation: Giants…

Monday Motivation: Giants…

Hey guys!

I hope your weekend was as merry and enjoyable as mine was! Yesterday, I got together with a group of friends to sing at an event ( singing back up for my friend and up and coming gospel artist by the name of Tyshan Knight) and after we completed that we went back to his house where we all had an impromptu game night. We were playing the game “Catchphrase” which is just like the game Taboo where you have to describe the word on the card without saying words or catchphrases that would automatically give it away. I was on a team with my bro LJ and we were facing Lyanne ( Tyshan’s wife) and our friend Isaac. Obviously, LJ and I won ( lol shade) and as we always do we began to “trash talk” each other ( All in love though, thats just how we are!) Ly made a comment about how sometimes giants ( meaning LJ and I) get defeated; and thus this post was inspired.

What is a giant? According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary a giant is described as:

  1.  a legendary humanlike being of great stature and strength

  2. 2a  :  a living being of great sizeb  :  a person of extraordinary powers

  3. 3:  something unusually large or powerful

This definition leads me to think about the story of David and Goliath.  The story can be found in 1 Samuel 17. Saul, who was king, was very disobedient. So God asked Samuel to find a new king. He sought to find the king through a man named Jesse who had 8 sons. To make a long story short, Samuel looked at 7 of the sons and none of then were right. Until he met the last son; a little shepherd boy named David. The Lord confirmed that David indeed would one day be king!  Now in this time the Israelites and the Philistines were not getting along . The Philistines had lots of giants living in their land, the biggest and strongest of whom was named Goliath. He was over 9 feet tall and was constantly looking to challenge the Israelites. If he was to win, the Israelites would become servants of his people the Philistines. But if he lost, his people would become the servants.  Just looking at the sheer size of this man, understandably were afraid. Nobody wanted to challenge this giant… enter David! So to make a long story short, David, on faith that God would protect him, accepted Goliath’s challenge , and with a slingshot and stone David was able to conquer this beast!

We face problems everyday. May it be problems with our health, issues in our relationships, financial struggles, family problems… so many problems or in other words …  Giants. Sometimes we elevate our struggles to giant status( that’s not to say that we don’t face some colossal issues in our lives)  So often we have allowed our problems to become large and powerful, uncontainable! We have let our problems take control of us all the while forgetting who is really in control of our lives.

David trusted God to take care of him. The feat he was facing looked impossible to conquer. But, because he trusted God to take care of him, he approached that giant with no fear!

I urge you to stand up to the Goliath’s in your lives! If you would only approach your Goliath’s  with the heart of David. A heart that knows that no matter how difficult the situation is, He will see you through! If God can use someone like David to conquer a giant like Goliath, certainly He can use someone like you and I to conquer our issues. Something as small as a stone was able to take out a giant.  So, though it may seem small, a simple prayer, grounded in faith that God can do all things , could absolutely destroy your problems.

There is no Goliath too big for God!
Always remember, that David ( through God) as small and seemingly powerless as he was,  ended up being the victor!

What are the Goliath’s in your life?
What are you doing to conquer your Goliath’s?

There is a song by Donald Lawrence called Giants that is so fitting, that I will leave with you today.

Have a blessed Monday !
xoxo

The Great Commission… Matthew 28

Hey guys!

Today is Easter Sunday my absolute favourite holiday ever! In the Pentecostal Christian faith we call this Sunday, “Resurrection Sunday” and on this Sunday I always like to re-read and meditate on Matthew 28( or the resurrection story) in some way or form.

On this Sunday, I was reminded of a song that I sang with the McMaster University Gospel Choir ( so many years ago… wow time flies!) under the direction of the uber talented Yhentyl Pryce. The song was a perfect and artistic representation of the events that took place leading up to, during and after the resurrection of Jesus Christ. I loved it then and I love it even more now! Check out the lyrics/song down below:

Destroy this temple and in three days, I will raise it up [x3]

Early Sunday morning as the noon day was dawning,
Came Mary Magdalene and the other Mary to the tomb.

Behold! There was a great earthquake! [x2]

For the angel of the Lord descended from Heaven
The angel of the Lord descended from Heaven [x3]

And rolled, rolled
And rolled,
Back the stone.

His countenance was like lightening and his raiment was as white as snow. [x3]

And for fear of Him the keepers did shake and became as dead men.

Fear not. [x3]
For I know ye seek Jesus who was crucified.
He is not here [x4]
For He has risen as he said.
Yeah!
See the place where the Lord lay.

Fear not. [x3]
For I know ye seek Jesus who was crucified.
He is not here [x4]
For He has risen as he said.
Yeah!
See the place where the Lord lay.

Remember how He said while He was yet in Galilee
I’ll rise, I’ll rise, Again [x4]
Alleluia [x3]
Amen [x6]

As you have probably figured out by the title of the song, you can find the written retelling of this story in the bible in Matthew 28! The part of this chapter that really stands out to me is the last few verses ( verses 18-20) where Jesus gives his disciples what is known as “The Great Commission”
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18 Jesus came and told his disciples, “I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth. 19 Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations,[b] baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. 20 Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

What an order he bestowed upon his disciples! He left with them the responsibility of sharing Him with everyone, teaching them about his commandments, baptizing them in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

I do believe that this Great Commission was not only for the disciples of yesteryear but for us today… right now! We have been commissioned by our Savior to win the lost at any cost!

Are we doing our part to uphold the Great Commission? Let’s take time this Resurrection Sunday to reflect and review. Even if we are sharing the gospel, there is still more we can do ! Let’s make sure that Christ is reflected in everything we do so that his trial, crucifixion, death and subsequent resurrection not be in vain!

Now, doing your active part in the Great Commission doesn’t mean you have to stand on a mountaintop and shout “Jesus is Lord” for all the nations to hear( not that anything is wrong with that!). You may be introverted ( or an introvert with extroverted tendencies like myself) and public speaking may not be your thing in big crowds ( although with faith you can conquer anything!)  But that doesn’t mean you can’t share the gospel of Jesus Christ effectively in your own way! Hey, I started a blog to share my faith! Find a way to fulfill your duties of the instructions Christ left us!

I hope and pray this Easter season fills you with a constant desire to share the Great Commission!

 

xoxo

A Little More Jesus…

A Little More Jesus…

Hey guys,

Real quick post today. Super busy weekend followed by a super hectic work week ahead! Forgive my tardiness or lack of posts for the next few days 🙂

I just had a song on my heart all day today. It’s not even a song I really particularly like all that much to be honest. But the words of the chorus really struck a chord ( pun intended :P) with me today.

The song  is ” A Little More Jesus” by Erica Campbell who is one half of the dynamic duo Mary Mary. Now… this song has a really country feel to it which is not my thing at all but I kept humming the chorus today!

The lyrics of the chorus are simply:
” I need a little more Jesus to help me along the way…”

And how true that is in the times we are living in right now( especially after this weekends tragedy in France and the continued terror attacks all over the world).  A time of wars, famine, poverty. Brokenness, despair and tragedy. The world is truly in need of a superhero to come to the rescue. I chose to put my hope in Jesus who is greater than Superman could ever be.

Matthew 24 details a lot of what we are seeing in our world today. It states:

4Jesus told them, “Don’t let anyone mislead you, 5for many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah.’ They will deceive many. 6And you will hear of wars and threats of wars, but don’t panic. Yes, these things must take place, but the end won’t follow immediately. 7Nation will go to war against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in many parts of the world. 8But all this is only the first of the birth pains, with more to come.

9“Then you will be arrested, persecuted, and killed. You will be hated all over the world because you are my followers.b 10And many will turn away from me and betray and hate each other. 11And many false prophets will appear and will deceive many people. 12Sin will be rampant everywhere, and the love of many will grow cold. 13But the one who endures to the end will be saved. 14And the Good News about the Kingdom will be preached throughout the whole world, so that all nationsc will hear it; and then the end will come. 

Now if that isn’t a sign of foreshadowing…. well… sigh…

The world needs just a little more Jesus…  If you don’t know Him, give him a chance! I mean what’s the worst that could happen? Eternal Life? Freedom? Try Him out!

Here are the remaining lyrics to the song and take a listen down below ( warning it is a super country/bluegrass gospel type of song so if that’s not your thing really listen to lyrics!)

Be blessed

xoxo

I got too mad and I said too much
Went too far and I almost cussed
No my mama didn’t raise me that way
Lord I need a little help today

I way too sad and I’m crying too long
I can’t keep saying everything is wrong
Yes my life seems way too hard
But ain’t nothin’ too hard for God

I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
Hey I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
To help me along my way

Come in sir

I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
Hey I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
To help me along my way

Hee-eee-eee-y

Problems at work, problems at home
Won’t everybody just leave me alone?
I can’t fix you cause I’m trying to fix me
I’m trying to find help so I’m on my knees

Gotta ache right here, pain right there
Not enough power needed way more prayer
Seems like it’s so hard to pray
Guess that’s why I lost my way