Monday Motivation: I Don’t Look Like What I’ve Been Through…

Monday Motivation: I Don’t Look Like What I’ve Been Through…

Hey loves!

As you know from yesterday’s post, I am not feeling the greatest. But I couldn’t let today pass me by without sharing a quick word.

I put the music on my phone on shuffle this evening and the song ,” I Don’t Look Like ( What I’ve Been Through) by Deon Kipping came on. I actually haven’t heard this song in years and didn’t even realize that it was still on my phone… but when God has a word for you ( and you!) He can’t be stopped.

I really shouldn’t be here. I should have been dead and gone several times over! Emotional stress should have captured my mind and left me crazy a long time ago…
Toxic relationships should have broken me down to my core…
I’ve had friends and family die tragic and untimely deaths…
I’ve been counted out more times than I can count…
I’ve had people say awful things about me behind my back and smile in face right after

But…

The unmerited grace and favour of God has kept me (and is still keeping me)
If I told you my story you wouldn’t believe me. People always ask me how I can keep I all together in the midst of my storms and still find a way to see the positive.I simply tell them its only the grace of God. Even in what seems like the midst of defeat, God grants me sweet peace.

If I looked like what I’ve been through, I wouldn’t be much to look at trust me. I know many of you are going through things too and you don’t know how you’re going to make it through! Just take faith in knowing that there is a God who sees every tear you shed, hears every prayer…Even if it seems like He doesn’t!

So keep smiling, keep pushing through your situations, God will continue to see you through!

Have a wonderful Monday !
( back to bed I go!!)

xoxo

Monday Motivation : That Is Who You Are…

Monday Motivation : That Is Who You Are…

Hey my lovelies!

I hope this Monday is finding you well mentally, emotionally and spiritually! What a whirlwind couple of weeks it has been for me. I had to take a break from regularly scheduled blogging and just regroup . Image result for regroup

Do you ever find that when you go through some tough times, and you finally get a break… the stupid old devil just seems to rear his head and cause things to crumble again? Well, that has  been my reality over the past few weeks, and not only me, countless friends and family members around me seem to be experiencing the same thing.

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I was perusing my Facebook feed last night and one persons status kind of stopped me in my tracks..  It simply read, ” Overwhelmed…. breathe”

So many people are going through things and the people around them don’t even know! So many people are without hope and we all know that no hope leads people down a very dangerous path. Which is why I am so grateful to know God , who provides me with an insurmountable, indescribable hope. Trust me, I’ve been through things that have shaken my faith, but never have I been without hope. I really don’t know how people who feel all hope is lost survive and bounce back from their situations.  Without the hope that God provides, I certainly don’t think I would have.

This week alone, I had 3 people, from 3 different areas of my life, reach out to me and let me know that they were praying for me… and with that, my hope was strengthened. This week showed me that God is still in the business of answering prayers.

Yesterday, the worship team sang a song by Sinach called “Way Maker” that just spoke to me so deeply. There were a few lyrics that I truly connected with in that moment

” You wipe away all tears, you mend the broken hearts, you’re the answer to it all Jesus!”
( YES HE IS! )

But the lyrics that really got me were the ones in the chorus that said,”

“Way maker
Miracle worker
Promise keeper
Light in the darkness
My God
That is who you are!”

He makes a way when there is no way!
He works miracles every single day!
There is not a promise He has made, that He has not kept!

That’s the God I serve! If he did it for me,  He can and will do it for you!

Tonight, I want to leave you with this song… but most importantly I want to leave you with this prayer:

Dear God,
Thank you for being who you are. Thank you for the gift of your son Jesus Christ. Thank you for sending Him to die on a cross for someone as lowly and unworthy as me. Tonight Father, I just come to you on behalf of the brokenhearted, the down in spirit, those who have lost all hope. Wherever they are Lord, I ask that you wrap your arms around them and let them know that you are near. Lord let  them realize that if they let go of their situations and put them in your capable hands, you will do the rest. God I ask that you send the right people to physically meet them where they are. Let them know that you will never leave them or forsake them, and even when they can’t see you working, help them to remember that you are always working on their behalf. God I’m thanking you in advance for the breakthroughs you are going to disperse all over this world to those who have put their trust and hope in YOU!  ( me included :). )

Amen!

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Keep praying for me as I continue to pray for you!

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Have a blessed Monday y’all
P.S Your girl is back!!!

xoxo

Monday Motivation: Road Trip…

Monday Motivation: Road Trip…

Hey y’all!

Dropping by real quick to share some of what was on my heart today. I was listening to Kirk Franklin’s new album ( surprise surprise) and I got stuck on one track in particular entitled, “Road Trip”. Its a light fun sounding track but if you really take a moment to take in the lyrics… WOW! Let me break it down as how it spoke to me.

Pack a smile, cause this road won’t be easy
Doubt will come, believe me
Sometimes you’ll wonder if it’s alright
Hold on tight, it’s about to be amazing
When you see what God is making
I can’t wait for you to tell me that (it’s alright)

Have you ever felt like life is just unbearable?  I know I have! Sometimes obstacles present themselves in your life that can really throw you off track and have you believing that everything you are working hard for is for nothing. People think that because you are a Christian, you don’t have fears and doubts. But that’s not the case. Sometimes you really have to remind yourself that someone ( God) is working on your behalf and you just have to be patient!

Travel light and leave room for tomorrow, expect delays
And sorrow, avoid left turns, don’t forget what’s right
Pray always, listen to that voice above you
Only let folk ride that love you, see you’ve come too far
You’ve gotta wrap on tight

Point, blank, period, life is always going to happen! Yes, God always has our back, but sometimes He allows situations to happen in our lives to happen to enable us to learn and grow. Example: I was in a relationship ( long distance) for a long time. I thought that this was it! I was totally in love! But… I let that relationship take precedence in my life and once God is not in the center….. it’s downhill from there. I was crushed and it took me a long time to recover from that situation. However, during those dark times, It allowed me to really turn my focus back to God and really listen to His voice and follow his map for my life! 

But every time that you’ve been through
For His glory God is using you
See it’s only in the darkest night
That you really see the stars shine bright

It’s so true! Everything you’ve been through is preparation for greater things! I tell you… I’ve been through some things in my life where I didn’t know how I was going to get through.  As I spend time with children and youth, both professionally, personally and in ministry, it is my hope that my story will encourage them in some way. 

So pack a smile, cause this road won’t be easy
Doubt will come, believe me
Sometimes you’ll wonder if it’s alright
Hold on tight, it’s about to be amazing
When you see what God is making
I can’t wait for you to tell me that (it’s alright)

See I know, dreams can take forever
Especially in stormy weather
It’s hard to see where the road will end
But good news, your destination is determined
It’s selected and predestined
Ain’t it good to know you win before you begin?

Man.. sometimes waiting for things is so hard! Have you ever read a book that was so interesting, but you just can’t wait to see what happens so you skip ahead? Well unfortunately, ( Or maybe fortunately)  we can’t just skip ahead through portions of our life that are unpleasing. We have to trust and believe that things will work out! Our life was already planned and predestined long before we were in existence and we are destined to win! Even winners get knocked down once in awhile( Ronda Rousey anyone lol) but a real champion gets back up and keeps going! 

But every time that you’ve been through
For His glory God is using you
See it’s only in the darkest night
That you really see the stars shine bright

So pack a smile, cause this road won’t be easy
Doubt will come, believe me
Sometimes you’ll wonder if it’s alright
Hold on tight, it’s about to be amazing
When you see what God is making
I can’t wait for you to tell me that (it’s alright)

It’s alright, it’s alright
It’s alright, it’s alright

The rear view mirror is smaller
Because when you can
You’re only supposed to look back at it real quick
Cause where you’re going is a lot greater

Don’t look back! When you drive, you really only use to rear view mirror to make sure things are safe behind you. Your real focus is what’s ahead! Keep your eyes on the prize!

Get tired of runnin’, but it’s alright
Cause I see what’s comin, and it’s alright
Wanted to give up, some days I tried
But your hand wouldn’t let me, now I’m alright

God’s always got your back! Even when you feel like giving up, remember He’s always there! Trust me, I’ve tried to give up and do things on my own….. and that didn’t work out so well for me! So, I’ll just let God to what He’s best at- taking care of me!

 

Take a listen to the track down here and have a blessed Monday!

xoxo

Lyrics found @: Kirk Franklin – Road Trip Lyrics | MetroLyrics

PS: Happy Thanksgiving to all American Readers this week!

A Little More Jesus…

A Little More Jesus…

Hey guys,

Real quick post today. Super busy weekend followed by a super hectic work week ahead! Forgive my tardiness or lack of posts for the next few days 🙂

I just had a song on my heart all day today. It’s not even a song I really particularly like all that much to be honest. But the words of the chorus really struck a chord ( pun intended :P) with me today.

The song  is ” A Little More Jesus” by Erica Campbell who is one half of the dynamic duo Mary Mary. Now… this song has a really country feel to it which is not my thing at all but I kept humming the chorus today!

The lyrics of the chorus are simply:
” I need a little more Jesus to help me along the way…”

And how true that is in the times we are living in right now( especially after this weekends tragedy in France and the continued terror attacks all over the world).  A time of wars, famine, poverty. Brokenness, despair and tragedy. The world is truly in need of a superhero to come to the rescue. I chose to put my hope in Jesus who is greater than Superman could ever be.

Matthew 24 details a lot of what we are seeing in our world today. It states:

4Jesus told them, “Don’t let anyone mislead you, 5for many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah.’ They will deceive many. 6And you will hear of wars and threats of wars, but don’t panic. Yes, these things must take place, but the end won’t follow immediately. 7Nation will go to war against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in many parts of the world. 8But all this is only the first of the birth pains, with more to come.

9“Then you will be arrested, persecuted, and killed. You will be hated all over the world because you are my followers.b 10And many will turn away from me and betray and hate each other. 11And many false prophets will appear and will deceive many people. 12Sin will be rampant everywhere, and the love of many will grow cold. 13But the one who endures to the end will be saved. 14And the Good News about the Kingdom will be preached throughout the whole world, so that all nationsc will hear it; and then the end will come. 

Now if that isn’t a sign of foreshadowing…. well… sigh…

The world needs just a little more Jesus…  If you don’t know Him, give him a chance! I mean what’s the worst that could happen? Eternal Life? Freedom? Try Him out!

Here are the remaining lyrics to the song and take a listen down below ( warning it is a super country/bluegrass gospel type of song so if that’s not your thing really listen to lyrics!)

Be blessed

xoxo

I got too mad and I said too much
Went too far and I almost cussed
No my mama didn’t raise me that way
Lord I need a little help today

I way too sad and I’m crying too long
I can’t keep saying everything is wrong
Yes my life seems way too hard
But ain’t nothin’ too hard for God

I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
Hey I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
To help me along my way

Come in sir

I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
Hey I need just a little more Jesus
I need just a little more Jesus
To help me along my way

Hee-eee-eee-y

Problems at work, problems at home
Won’t everybody just leave me alone?
I can’t fix you cause I’m trying to fix me
I’m trying to find help so I’m on my knees

Gotta ache right here, pain right there
Not enough power needed way more prayer
Seems like it’s so hard to pray
Guess that’s why I lost my way

 

 

Que Sera Sera…

Que Sera Sera…

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here’s what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future’s not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be….

(My mother used to sing this song to me as a little girl)

Why don’t you….( fill in the blank) How come you don’t….(insert question here) When are you going to… ( insert yet another question)

Is it just me, or has anyone else experienced people wanting  to know ( and expect you to know) every single aspect of the direction of your life? I don’t know about anyone else,but some of the plans I had for my life have not yet come to fruition and I have no explanation why.

Someone wise once told me, If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans and that is certainly true! ( to me anyway 🙂 )

I used to get offended when people would compare my life to others. Mind you, I’m a College/University educated, strong black woman making my way in this Early Childhood Education community and I’m also thriving in ministry work. So It’s not like I’m over here struggling! But still as confident as I am in myself, it would still irritate me to no end when people would put their two cents in where it wasn’t requested or required!

Until I stopped and really thought to myself, “Why are you getting mad?” People ask questions for a number of reasons. A: They generally mean well, B: They are just nosy or C:They don’t really like you and want to know your business to be harmful. We all know groups of people know that fall into each one of these categories. Unfortunate, but true. I’ve learned to focus my energy on the people who fall in category A.  You may not necessarily want to hear what they have to say, but you can tell their intentions are not meant to be offensive or harmful, but as genuine concern and anticipation of your accomplishments. ( I have A LOT of these people around me 🙂 )

Over the years I’ve learned that I am not in control of my life. As a young Christian woman I’ve truly come to understand that God is the orchestrator of my life and no matter what anybody else thinks about my life, or the direction ( or pace) It’s progressing it, my life in the hands of the Master and whatever will be will be and I am confident that even more blessings are on the way!

So…… Live! Laugh! Love!….Enjoy because life is much too short not to!

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xoxo

Grace Saved Me…

Grace Saved Me…

God loves me
Adores me
Watches over me
You are for me
Grace loves me and it’s not what I deserve
And nothing that I’ve earned
But daily grace saves me.
Oooooo But for your grace
I’d be lost, but for your grace (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/tasha_cobbs/grace.html)

Grace…  Grace is defined in Christian terms as the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings. As a Christian, I’ve experienced grace by way of salvation, but never have  I really experienced grace in the flesh like I did Sunday February 8.

Church was wonderful. My father and I were rushing to leave ( i because i wanted to escape the temptation of the bake sale lol) and he because he’s not much of a person to linger. As we were preparing to leave, he rubbed his forehead and said his head felt funny. Now my dad is like me and prone to headaches when the pressure in the air changes so I really didn’t think anything of it. He was driving and I was checking email. I noticed the car was beginning to drift. I looked over and realized that my dad was not responsive. He was having an “absent seizure” ( staring spell). Unable to get his foot off the gas, I had to lean over and grab the wheel and swing the car into a snow bank on the passenger side, to keep us from drifting into oncoming traffic. I was finally able to stop the car, throw it in park and turn it off… Luckily we were only 2 blocks from church and I called church and our members were there in no time. By this time he had recovered and had no recollection of the incident. My friend drove our car uptown and we went home with plans to call the doctor Monday morning. ( FYI I didnt call 911 because he was showing no visible signs of distress. He has had episodes like this last year and all his results were clear)

As we were eating dinner joking around, the same thing happened. I called my dear friend who is a Registered Nurse and she came by and suggested that we head to the emergency room. In the ambulance,he had another episode and about 6 more episodes that evening. They began running tests. Nothing. They ran more tests, Nothing.

Strange? No not strange to me. I was strangely calm while the car incident was happening and throughout this whole process. I truly know that God took COMPLETE control of the situation. But does that mean that I wasn’t scared? Or that I wasn’t sad that my dad was in this situation? Of course not. I’m human. But I held on to the fact that I serve a miracle-working , healing God.

After 5 days in the hospital, doing every single test possible, all tests were clear. No tumor, no blood clot, nothing at all. Frustrating because we have no human explanation, but refreshing because I know God hears me and fixed whatever it was!

My mother, a tower of strength. My aunts,uncles  and entire extended family have been so supportive. My church family ( Hamilton COGOP)  have been amazing. MY FRIENDS! I have been so humbled by their outpouring of love. My friend Jess for bringing salt for my driveway, Andrae/Jerome for taking care of my cars….Keysh T, Slim, Clove, Jerms, Steph and Cass,Shanice, Chi, Omar, Kay, Decha…. there’s so many to name. I am truly blessed to have all the wonderful people in my life. Even people who I have a personality clash with, has been super supportive and I truly respect this woman for her prayers and encouragement.

As I was listening to the Tasha Cobbs song I quoted earlier, the tears just began to flow. I could have been dead and gone today but for His grace. I could be in mourning today but for His grace. Life can change in a split second and I’m so glad I have a peace that keeps me grounded. In the darkest of times ( and this week was pretty dark) there is a light at the end of tunnel and his name is Jesus! I’m forever grateful… its flowing from my heart…

A scripture that really got me through this week was Isaiah 26:3

You will keep in perfect peace
    all who trust in you,
    all whose thoughts are fixed on you!

Keep your thoughts fixed on Him!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGJ3Y0csZRE

I know this blog is all over the place, I promise I’ll be back on it Monday!! PS HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

xoxo

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