Is it just me or does anybody’s calendar sometimes overwhelm them? Honestly, since the top of the year I feel like I’ve just been like a hamster on a treadmill; non- stop go, go go!
While I wouldn’t say I’m a people pleaser, I would say I have a strong desire to make sure those in my circle feel supported whether it be emotionally or as it most often ends up being my physical presence is there when they need it.
I decided that 2019 was going to be the year that I said: ” no” to more things and that, I would be “selfish” this year and look out for me. My favourite phrase was geared and set to be ” Sorry, I’m not available,,,”
But as things kept coming my way and I formed my mouth to utter the words, “Sorry I’m not available” I began to ponder one thing… and this one thing stopped me dead in my tracks:
“What if God decided to have a selfish year and not be “available” for my needs?”
Ouch… talk about a slap in the face!
It has been this long since 2019 started:
If I really take stock of how many times I have run to God in this time, and every time I called on Him, He was available, It would be impossible to create an accurate tally.
As a Christian, we are called to be Christ-like. That includes with our time, more specifically with our service. One of the most important roles in His short time on earth was one of a humble servant. And while I’m sure He would have much rather been given a different task to complete, He took on His role as the Saviour with grace. And now, that same grace, because of the great sacrifice of Himself, has allowed us to live an abundant life.
John 10;10 “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” English Standard Version
Herein lays my dilemma. How can I so flippantly dismiss people and what they may need from me, simply because I don’t feel like it? I can’t…
What I can do is to utilize the wisdom that God gave me and be wise about how I delegate my time and… most importantly use the time I have wisely.
This means before making myself available to Sue, Jim and Jenny, I need to make myself available to Him. To not neglect to make real time for Him. Not just the leftovers.
The song ” Available to You ” has always been one of my favourites but something about the words today ( specifically this verse) really hit me:
Now I’m giving back to You
All the tools You gave to me
My hands, my ears, my voice, my eyes
So You can use them as You please
I have emptied out my cup
So that You can fill me up
Now, I’m free, I just want to be
More available to You
It’s my desire to be available to God to be able to use me whenever He needs to- in whichever capacity He sees fit.
If it means being a shoulder for that friend to lean on.
If it means being that praying voice someone needs to hear.
If it means sitting on someone’s couch sharing about the love of God.
If it means feeding the hungry.
If it means sacrificing my WANTS to meet someone’s NEEDS….. ( ouch soph.. really talking to yourself here!!)
Then that’s what I need to do.
I just want to be as available to God as He is to me… and while they may be impossible ( you know with Him being all-knowing and omnipresent 🙂 ) I certainly want to be available for Him to use me in any capacity.
Let’s make 2019 a year where we are available!