God loves me
Watches over me
You are for me
Grace loves me and it’s not what I deserve
And nothing that I’ve earned
But daily grace saves me.
Oooooo But for your grace
I’d be lost, but for your grace (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/tasha_cobbs/grace.html)
Grace… Grace is defined in Christian terms as the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings. As a Christian, I’ve experienced grace by way of salvation, but never have I really experienced grace in the flesh like I did Sunday February 8.
Church was wonderful. My father and I were rushing to leave ( i because i wanted to escape the temptation of the bake sale lol) and he because he’s not much of a person to linger. As we were preparing to leave, he rubbed his forehead and said his head felt funny. Now my dad is like me and prone to headaches when the pressure in the air changes so I really didn’t think anything of it. He was driving and I was checking email. I noticed the car was beginning to drift. I looked over and realized that my dad was not responsive. He was having an “absent seizure” ( staring spell). Unable to get his foot off the gas, I had to lean over and grab the wheel and swing the car into a snow bank on the passenger side, to keep us from drifting into oncoming traffic. I was finally able to stop the car, throw it in park and turn it off… Luckily we were only 2 blocks from church and I called church and our members were there in no time. By this time he had recovered and had no recollection of the incident. My friend drove our car uptown and we went home with plans to call the doctor Monday morning. ( FYI I didnt call 911 because he was showing no visible signs of distress. He has had episodes like this last year and all his results were clear)
As we were eating dinner joking around, the same thing happened. I called my dear friend who is a Registered Nurse and she came by and suggested that we head to the emergency room. In the ambulance,he had another episode and about 6 more episodes that evening. They began running tests. Nothing. They ran more tests, Nothing.
Strange? No not strange to me. I was strangely calm while the car incident was happening and throughout this whole process. I truly know that God took COMPLETE control of the situation. But does that mean that I wasn’t scared? Or that I wasn’t sad that my dad was in this situation? Of course not. I’m human. But I held on to the fact that I serve a miracle-working , healing God.
After 5 days in the hospital, doing every single test possible, all tests were clear. No tumor, no blood clot, nothing at all. Frustrating because we have no human explanation, but refreshing because I know God hears me and fixed whatever it was!
My mother, a tower of strength. My aunts,uncles and entire extended family have been so supportive. My church family ( Hamilton COGOP) have been amazing. MY FRIENDS! I have been so humbled by their outpouring of love. My friend Jess for bringing salt for my driveway, Andrae/Jerome for taking care of my cars….Keysh T, Slim, Clove, Jerms, Steph and Cass,Shanice, Chi, Omar, Kay, Decha…. there’s so many to name. I am truly blessed to have all the wonderful people in my life. Even people who I have a personality clash with, has been super supportive and I truly respect this woman for her prayers and encouragement.
As I was listening to the Tasha Cobbs song I quoted earlier, the tears just began to flow. I could have been dead and gone today but for His grace. I could be in mourning today but for His grace. Life can change in a split second and I’m so glad I have a peace that keeps me grounded. In the darkest of times ( and this week was pretty dark) there is a light at the end of tunnel and his name is Jesus! I’m forever grateful… its flowing from my heart…
A scripture that really got me through this week was Isaiah 26:3
You will keep in perfect peace
all who trust in you,
all whose thoughts are fixed on you!
Keep your thoughts fixed on Him!!
I know this blog is all over the place, I promise I’ll be back on it Monday!! PS HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!